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no more. [20 Jun 2004|12:17pm]
i have moved to soakedinstars. join me?
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[12 Jun 2004|03:13am]
Don't ask questions.. just click here baby. You won't regret it, trust me.
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O.O [11 Jun 2004|10:46pm]
lilmoonbunni may actually be a spider-human hybrid


From Go-Quiz.com
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Graduate Alert!! [04 Jun 2004|10:15pm]
So, I graduated today. I was writing thank you notes, with tears running down my cheeks. I can't believe this chapter in my life is closed--as the cliche goes. My last thank you note was to Nick. It was the longest and the most heart-felt.. It pretty much sums everything up:

Without you, my grades wouldn't have changed. They'd still be all C's and I know I'd never have challenged myself with AP. You have been such a positive influence in my life and in everything I do. These past two years have been the best in my life with you by my side. Your support in my successes--as well as my failures--is worth more than everything I have received. I love you more than words can say. Thank you for pushing me to be my best, for supporting me when I felt I turned the wrong why, and for holding my hand encouragenly when I felt I couldn't go on. You are my air. I love you.

Congratulations class of 2004!
We did it!!
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OH no I'm addicted to ANOTHER stupid thing. [30 May 2004|05:25pm]
I'm addicted to this stupid ass thing, I just want fairy wings and then I can live my life again.. don't ask. Click though? :p
Gaia Online anime roleplaying community
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Alcohol research. [21 May 2004|07:59pm]
While on my way to prom last weekend, i saw a bum on the side of the road.

he was holding a sign. it said:

"Need money for alcohol research." He had a big grin on his face, and made me wish I had a camera.

At least he was honest?
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[08 May 2004|11:12am]
i got into a car accident last night. it was really really bad.

what happened was.. i thought i saw my best friend's dog, it was running along the street and about to cross the road. i was afraid it would get run over. i was in the second lane and ther weren't any cars on the road except one in the lane next to me which was hidden in my blind spot. i did a quick u-turn and it crashed into my side. i was broad-sided.. i think is what they called it.

i can't even explain how scary it was. the collision must have lasted a few seconds but i felt like we were spinning around for a half hour. the car hit my door in a lucky spot.. it hit my seat which saved my life by not allowing the car to go any further. if it had been only two inces more to the left i would not have survived.

i was in shock. nick was screaming in the passenger seat, asking if i was okay. i didn't answer, i couldn't breathe. the other car asked if i could get out of the car, i realized that i couldn't. my leg was trapped under the dashboard and my other leg wasn't working, i couldn't move it. nick, in shock, went out his door to open mine to help me out. when he got there, he stared at it with wide eyes. i dont know how i got out of the car, but i walked out, barefoot on the gravel walking along the glass. i went to see the damage, and i couldn't handle what i saw. i screamed and cried and my legs were weak. i felt dizzy and everythign was blurry and all i could do was repeat, "im so sorry.. it's all my fault.. it's my fault.. im so so sorry.." nick called the police and they came right away. the paramedics wanted to take me away. they asked me if i was in any pain and it was only when they asked that i realized that i was. my lower back hurt where the car door and seat hit me and my right knee which had hit the dashboard. i couldn't walk. all i could do was cry.

my insurance only covered the other person's car. we went to the doctor's, they took x-rays and everything. nothing is broke, i just have a lot of deep muscle bruises. the door had hit my kidney, so they had to make sure there wasn't any internal bleeding. they said it was alright, but to make sure the pain didn't get worse after the third day or else there might be something wrong.

im in so much pain today. my ankle hurts and there's a big bruise where it was twisted. my knee has three big purple bruises and so does my lower back. i can't move my neck, walk straight or without limping, sit down without excruciating pain, or hold anything with my right arm. my ribs hurt when i breathe and my sides hurt whenever i turn or make a sudden move.

i slept all yesterday. i've been taking pain pills and muscle relaxors so ive been pretty out of it. i keep thinking about the crash and i keep crying. i dont have a car or a job and i dont know what's going to happen. it's all still a big shock to me.

the medics and everybody else kept telling me how lucky i was to walk away from it. a few more inches, they said, and i wouldn't. we were about to take my dog home with us, too.. but i left her at my mom's. it's so lucky we did. she would be dead if we didn't. im still really out of it and i can hardle move around to take care of myself.

to top it all off, i started my period today so i have cramps and even more aches. i am lucky though. i am so so lucky.

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[28 Apr 2004|12:55pm]

this school of mine is driving me completely insane! it's ridiculous! how they treat us. how that fat ugly goat-lady looks down on me and talks down to me. how can any hall monitor at a highschool think they are better than ANYBODY especially the students they are watching over? you are at a fucking highschool.. a paid babysitter for highschool students. how sad and lame can you get?

she was following me and nick around. she said, "you two are hugging romantically. that is against policy and unnacceptable." she got so close to us that we walked away and she said, "i hope you aren't trying to get away from me.. im watching you. im following you.

i told my mom to talk to the dean about just what she said to me.. and.. god bless her! she did. i love my mom. when she comes through, she really does come through. the best thing one person can do for another is just be there for the other.

ever since then that hall monitor is just looking to get me in trouble. she even sent me to the dean for saying "oh my god" saying i was swearing. out of the four times she has tried to get me in trouble in the past two days, none were successful.

it just pisses me off. i can't wait to come back next year just so i can tell her how sad she is and how i pity her. for.. while next year i'll be studying to become a well-paid bioligist for the government, she will still be at that high school watching over students.

i hate highschool.

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[23 Apr 2004|01:31pm]
i... well. im pretty drained. we had a presentation in government, and.. well.. it..

lets put it this way: think back to those nightmares where you are standing in front of the class and your naked. that's how it felt. we went up there, everything that could have gone wrong did.

i have mixed feelings. this grade is the only grade we have besides the final exam. other words? im fucked. i want to be mad.. but who should i be mad at? i want to be mad at the one who said she would take care of it. if she was going to take care of it, why didn't she? why did it mess up? however, she said she would take care of it. and i understand that things happen sometimes. why she didn't check to make sure it worked on the computer is beyond me but i feel more sympathy towards her than anger. i want to be angry but there isn't much anger in me.

i just want to hug her and tell her it's okay. it's okay you fucked my grade up.. cuz i understand. i understand the pressure.

i guess i'll just be angry at myself.

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random 15 songs.. [16 Apr 2004|05:36pm]
step 1: randomize your winamp playlist
step 2: copy down the first 15.. no matter how embarassing. :p

1. La Bouche - Wanna Be My Lover
2. Tori Amos - 1000 Oceans
3. Kylie Minogue - Fever
4. Faye Wong - Eyes on Me (Remix)
5. Utada Hikaru - Simple and Clean
6. The Buggles - Video Killed the Radio Star
7. Tatu - Not Gonna Get Us
8. Mariah Carey - Reflections
9. Eve 6 - Beautiful Oblivion
10. Tori Amos - Hey Jupiter
11. Uncle Kracker - In a Little While
12. Mariah Carey - Heartbreaker
13. Inoj - Precious Love
14. Jesse McCartney - Second Star on the Right
15. Natalie Imbruglia - Wrong Impression
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>insert incredible frustration here [13 Apr 2004|11:43am]
guess who called? Petsmart! I just quit my job, and i get this call from Petsmart, "Hello.. is this Shanna? Are you still interested in being a bather for Petsmart?"



but.. they are across the city.... "Oops, sorry.. I didn't realize you were so far. I apologize.."

i hate that. getting a rush of excitement. my life is turning around. my hopes are high. then, in a second, crushed again.

a need a shoulder.

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[11 Apr 2004|11:26pm]
sometimes i feel like running away & never stopping. (not even to breathe)
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meow..! [02 Apr 2004|09:35pm]
soaked in stars! i finally had time to design a layout. im well on my way now.:) wee! so exciting!!
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[31 Mar 2004|07:55pm]
garh. i hate how im so afraid of presentations. it drives me crazy. i know there's nothing to be afraid of.. it's so stupid.. but everytime i get in front of the class, i shake and feel hot and feverish and just want to die..
and now tomorrow is comming and i feel sick.
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forever. [29 Mar 2004|07:15pm]
im so scared that he'll stop loving me. he'll stop loving me like my mom stopped loving my dad.

"how can you love somebody forever?"
"well.. will you love me forever?"
"that's how."
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mmm.. sleep [27 Mar 2004|03:14pm]
i went to take a nap at 4:00 p.m. yesterday. i let nick have the car, so i didn't have to pick him up and thus was worry-free. well, next thing i know, it's 5. i feel great.. and for only an hour power nap! except.. nick is next to me and i don't understand why he would come home after only an hour at work.. then i realize it's 5 in the morning! and what's worse is.. i turned right back over, cuddled up next to nick, and went back to sleep for another hour and a half!

how unhealthy is it to sleep for 13 hours?! hmm.. must be the allergy pills.

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[22 Mar 2004|10:48pm]
i hit a curb, i got a bubble in my tire and.. it blew up! popped! which is horrible because tires are quite expensive. *le sigh* i called in today.. and im planning on quitting tomorrow.. and i attempted to call in sick two days ago (but ended up going because i felt guilty.. ha!)
ya think they'll be happy?
anyways. i've been missing a lot of school. at least a day a week. i have major senioritis! i hope they can't fail me for missing too many days! wow.. what a nightmare. :X i have to graduate and get out of this god-forsaken desert!
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[20 Mar 2004|12:20pm]
well, my portfolio//graphic design site is up.
here if you want to take a look.
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[16 Mar 2004|10:11pm]
whee! i did it! my domain is up & running.. well.. almost. i can actually add things to it:D i haven't really made my main site.. just my portfolio site. i like how it turned out though. everything works except for the 'portfolio' section lmao cuz my capture screen doesn't work :\

http://portfolio.soakedinstars.net/main.htm (in case you want to look)

soakedinstars.net will be my personal page.. but.. i haven't come up with a layout yet for it. also, my nicky will be residing in darkness.soakedinstars.net when he actually gets time to:x

it's pretty cool tho because i have pop3 mail accounts and domain and custom 404 and and and...! i love! <3

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[15 Mar 2004|12:52pm]
YAY! IT'S UP! My domain! soakedinstars.net! :D Well.. it's kind of up.. at least it's functioning now.. lmfao. I still can't upload thigs to it XD OH WELL! I still don't undestand how to do subdomains and such :\ i am being such a pain to these poor people! well. it's not my fault my account was messed up! or maybe it is.. since that seems to happen to everything i sign up for :O

oh.. well.. i love that this is working out and i feel quite heavenly and happy <3

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